07/08/2024
What do you say to your friends when you feel like you've abandoned them? When you feel like a flake? When you feel like you haven't really been a friend?
I know I joke around and I'm sarcastic A LOT. But, in all seriousness.....This year is flying by and I'm just over here trying to make my businesses successful and family proud. I want our kids to be able to do all their activities and not have to ask for help (this is a HUGE ISSUE for me).
Something had to give and I guess, by default, that ended up being my friendships and social life.
We've squeezed in a few things here and there, but nothing really PLANNED. We've not had a vacation. I've not kept up with birthdays, anniversaries, kids events, etc. Nothing. I've spent a TON of money because I don't/can't/won't plan for these things, so everything is last minute. I hardly ever leave my house. I think I even had my hairstylist quit on me because I couldn't schedule an appt.
And. I. Feel. HORRIBLE.
I know some will say I shouldn't feel bad and some will say I need to get my sh*t together and plan. Do better. Make better choices. Prioritize. I. GET. IT.
But how do you implement this and where do you start? I keep feeling like I need to at least pick one friend and go do something. Then I feel guilty for which ones WON'T be picked. Or that I'll do something more fun/meaningful with one and another will be upset.
UUUGGGHHHHH......I love you all. Just know that. And I'll figure this all out, but right now I just needed to put this out there. And Happy Birthday. And Happy Anniversary. Any prayers for those struggling. I love your puppies, kids, families....ALL OF IT.
