05/03/2026
🥳it's my 27th bday 💝do you think Selena would like this song? 👀 for so long, i loved from a place of proving myself. i'd shrink to fit, people-please, ignore my own needs. my nervous system was ALWAYS activated waiting for abandonment, performing worthiness, mistaking intensity for love.
therapy, somatic work, breathwork, sound healing... i was rewiring my entire relationship to safety. learning that love shouldn't require me to disappear.
that being safe means feeling held, not controlled. that i ca be loved & be whole.
my boyfriend has LOVES selena.
like, truly loves her. & one day i thought: what if there's a part two to "i could fall in love"?
what if Selena sung a song to her lover from a place of secure attachment, not hiding?
i started by recording my vocals over the original instrumental.
so i built the entire production around my vocals. strings that swell when i finally claim my own safety. R&B drums grounding me like heartbeats. spanish woven throughout honoring my heritage, selena, & parts of me that refused to be erased.
there's this moment in the song where i sing about all the sleepless nights, the fairytales i made up, the tears i cried... but then i belt:
"BUT THEY OPENED UP MY HEART IN DIVINE TIME."
that's the whole journey. the pain wasn't wasted. it cracked me open. it taught me what safety actually feels like. & now when i sing "i am safe" it's an embodiment.
this song is for anyone who's done the inner work. who's learned to regulate their own nervous system. who knows their worth isn't dependent on being chosen. who understands that real romantic q***r love is co-regulation, not completion.
it's for healers, therapy girlies g**s dolls kens & theys, rewiring attachment styles & decolonizing their hearts. it's for the selena lovers. for the spanglish speakers. for anyone learning to come home to themselves.
comment "SAFE" below if this resonates & i'll wend you the demo before it drops May 1!
claim it. embody it. let it be your affirmation today. you are safe. with & without your loved ones you've trusted & allowed to share your heart.
WITH SO MUCH LOVE, .the.alchemist 🧙🏽
"Trust Your Intuition. Witness Your Clarity."