21/04/2024
Soulmates
their shapes and faces that I can see, though am all alone over here in these 4 walls, I'm not forcing to imagine anybody I have seen, it's like they on my mind, reaching me, from different angles, their energies are talking to me as if my soul could conversate to it, telling everything whatever I could ever think, exchanging feelings, showing my true face and personality, I never lie to myself, so I can’t eventually pretend anybody else especially when some horse milk is leaking down my nose' hole or throath's - actually healing me from some sickness that I get insulted of, almost everytime I pop over without dough or by speaking about my own problems, asking relatives for any help or answers. They react in anger pointing me to manage by myself elsewhere. Despite I'm sober, they got no sober time for me to offer, judging then guessing what narcotics got me act like an offer, as I been loosing everything I used to owe to pay off the bank cuz no one cares to make me richer. I don't have to check. I'm way too experienced to understand how all those substances influence me and how do they make them. Therefore I simply accept me being real and confident, there was no better man I have ever met to made me who I am, rather than myself, so I put my trust in my Godlike intuition. Let's keep on making my own choices, show grace to all people that Lord lets me find on my way to fulfill my roles in his world. Jesus please forgive me for my sins and rejecting your will, my honor to prove myself to them was too strong, rather than giving it up upon yours. I'm dumb, naive, predictable and no good, actually there are no bad surprises from my du***ss performances and actions I plan without secrets. Reality is that I love my speeches, with beats or without. I’ve been written as a self-made musician and even if I'm the only one to enjoy while listening am thinking ‘bout so many american I only know from videoclips, what if they think about me too? even if they are gone physically.. how do I know how many people have ever heard of me? seen my photographies or fell in love with my voice as much as me? Is this way too sweet to talk about my own abilities without any criticism or neither a company to correct what you may have been dissing? my mom look reminds me that an anteater could still exist. I look so similar plus I got intetic ears to hear better and they are big enough to spot the red hoodie chick so then I could also repeat for her everything I can remember even after ms lauryn hill, oh I’ve fixed my intetics with surgeries. If you doubt, come again uhlala la some girls some girls are only about that thing, that thing, so I'm not buying no ring, I got no love for them pros , the prostitutes. I'm lying. I’m trying my best to let you know, if you’se a whorelike cam girl or nightclubs’ stripper I’m not paying you for love am paying you to be my friend, bitch ass. I only give s*x if I really care, I lick ass, p***y, t**s, plus my chest wins some contest for the title of mister universe, I'm laughing. Ha haha ha so many showed me how to rap it I'm not even starting to list them out in this mist. If you don't like when I don’t fail maybe I'd try to ask, I mean to propose, if she could marry me, I mean to a Kylie Jenner, I bet she rather dismisses it but what if I check over the internet ?
by Maciej Mioduszewski
